Order Only Private message to Lily
Jul. 29th, 2014 08:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_severusI have thought of you every day since your death, but tonight I cannot stop thinking of your smile. I see it in your son — he has Potter's hair and Potter's cheekbones, Potter's chin and Potter's execrable eyesight, but he has your eyes and your smile, and though by the end I did not see that smile often, I will see it in my dreams until my own end comes upon me.
I have failed you again — I can no longer be there to watch over Harry from day to day — and I cannot decide if you would be angry at me for having broken yet another of my promises to you, posthumous or no, or if you would laugh at my having thrown everything aside to save Draco and once more say you have always known that someday I would set aside my overthinking everything and discover a Gryffindor's capacity to charge in without thinking hidden inside me somewhere. I suppose that old bet has finally been settled. I would pay my forefit, save that I cannot recall what we had agreed upon as the stakes, and there is no one living left to ask.
...something is amiss; this nostalgia is quite uncharacteristic.
I have failed you again — I can no longer be there to watch over Harry from day to day — and I cannot decide if you would be angry at me for having broken yet another of my promises to you, posthumous or no, or if you would laugh at my having thrown everything aside to save Draco and once more say you have always known that someday I would set aside my overthinking everything and discover a Gryffindor's capacity to charge in without thinking hidden inside me somewhere. I suppose that old bet has finally been settled. I would pay my forefit, save that I cannot recall what we had agreed upon as the stakes, and there is no one living left to ask.
...something is amiss; this nostalgia is quite uncharacteristic.
